Here it comes… emotional swings. My emotions about the break up has swung towards guilt since late last night. AEG has sacrificed a lot to be with me. And now I feel guilty for letting her down.
What is love? When does a loved one come before one's child. I myself have questioned why my ex-wife can neglect me when she herself said that a spouse comes before the children. But it's much easier when it mainly means giving the spouse the attention he/she needs before taking care of the child (assuming the child is old enough to entertain himself).
Here I'm being asked to leave my child behind in Singapore (because he is under the care and control of my ex-wife), and migrate overseas with her.
To put things in contrast, AEG had sacrificed something much more then what she is asking me to sacrifice. Something that I'm still unwilling to reveal despite the anonymity of this blog.
I feel guilt, because all her actions have shown how deeply she loves me, and how much is willing to do for me. Despite all the arguments, fights, conflicts, and disagreements we've had. All the mental and emotional torture we've put each other through and at the end of the day she had still chosen me over a life of material comfort, and emotional and mental peace.
If what she has shown me is not love… then what is?
Thursday, 1 June, 2006 at 11:38 AM
i’ve already given you my piece. so i hope u get over with this… ok?
Sunday, 4 June, 2006 at 10:43 AM
*hurts*
But it’s not enough, is it?
I think she feels a sense of helplessness.
Of course, she should comprehend your predicament.
Children will always come first.
But if she knew about him from before, I don’t think she would have ever allowed herself to fall in love with you.
I think you were being selfish. Admit it.
sad.
Monday, 5 June, 2006 at 2:19 PM
Hmmm??? I don’t get you. Children should come first, but I’m being selfish.
She did know about him right from the start. When she first knew me, I’ve already told her I was married with a child.